Life is a Dream.

mood: grateful

music: Shakira - La Tortura

Because there has to be one! :] It feels like the year went by extremely quickly. Yet so much occurred that it feels like all those events and friendships couldn't possibly fit into only nine months.

I moved out of the dorms last Tuesday. (My finals were done wayyyyy early, in comparision to many other people.) Looking at my empty room, bare and stripped of all its previous stupid color, made me kind of sad. The dorm won't be missed. I have not felt like at ease at that place for months. The only time it felt like home was Fall quarter. Regardless, it was a bit sad to clear out. Strange, huh? Probably because it symbolized the end of the year.

And yes, it was A GOOD YEAR. Sometimes I don't talk in a cold fashion, but I truly did enjoy and love what I have gained from this year.

It is pretty much a given I went out, socialized, drank, did random shit, and occasionally... studied. So I don't need to reflect on all that minor shit, right? I appreciate the people from the fraternity for many experiences and putting up with me, the Greek Frat/Sorority people who I had fun with and will probably see more of next year, the independent people just because.. I like you guys/girls?, those random people who I love running into, and even punkass annoying dramatic dipshits. Because they taught me the most valuable lesson this year: You shouldn't put too much faith in people. They'll disappoint you. I honestly thought after high school, high school mentalities would still be left behind. No shit talking, dramas over stupid things, rivialries for no good reason other than stirring things up, no couped up cliques, no bias. Wow, I was stupid. People will back stab given the chance. And when they do, deal with it, learn from it, and try not to take it personally. Oh yeah, and wtf is with people acting sweet to you when you two really aren't cool? That's just weird.

I was not really expecting anything for college. I did not have a picture in my head about what college was supposed to be like. Surprising, huh? I did not end up with a solid single group of friends you always chill with. But I knew that I wasn't like that. Even in high school, I was always a wanderer. Network > Clique. That's just how I see things. It does not mean I love my different groups of friends any less.

I'M HELLA EXCITED FOR 2ND YEAR. Fall Quarter was the most fun, to me. And now it can happen all over again. The rush parties, meeting new people, spending time with established friends, and the opportunity to take on so many different new things. But his time, with a slight bit more experience. Straight out, I feel like a freakin disappointment to a grip of people. That's the un-sugercoated truth and I know it. And it makes me want to be a better person. Yeah, I don't have much to show for saying that, but at least I got goals in mind. Isn't that better than being aimless?

Everytime I receive money - whether it's for food, livin means, birthdays, christmas, or even doing surveys - I put half of it into savings. I just started doing this this year, and it makes a difference. Which is never touched (I'm hella strict about that), because, of course, it's all for my future ride. ;] Sure, I have less spending money. But it's nice to know I have something to fall back on incase a big financial emergency comes up. That was a bit irrelevant, but I thought it was interesting.


And thank YOU, livejournal people. haha. For keeping in touch with me even though I'm so bad at updating, commenting, and all the like. <3